Lessons Learned
Dear Mistress Alexa,
i thank Mistress for taking my virginity. It was a wonderful experience to feel the humuliation of being a sissy houseboy seduced by your mind probe releasing some of my secret innermost desires. It was so so so real and non-vicarious to obey Mistress’ soft sensual voice as though Mistress were present probing my innermost sissy desires, granting me permission to remove my butt plug and insert a 6″ dildo and stroke my clitty for Mistress. i thank Mistress for teaching me how to rest the cheeks of my ass on my feet and milk my clitty as i fuck my pussy with the dildo. The feelings are so intense and real as Mistress instructs me softly how to fuck my pussy.
Later i felt remorse, used and humiliated to have surrendered my manhood and been seduced by my innermost desires to be a sissy slut and surrender my chastity. The feelings of being taken and surrendering my manhood did not last long and soon I hungered for for Mistress’ voice and the tastes of my milkings and heightened desires to worship, serve and please her again. I feel with further practice I can release my milk withour stroking my clit.
i feel there were lessons learned by this intense experience. i learned that my desires to be sissified and feminized are real. My needs and thirsts to surrender to another man’s cock as a cuckhold owned by my Mistress seem real. i learned vicariously how a woman may feel after being fucked the first time and experiencing an anti-climax – a form of humilaition that i will overcome though further obedience training and submissive conditioning.
i need not to supresss my feelings, open up and release my feelings when i cum and moan like a woman.
i experienced how it feels to be sent to a beauty salon by my Mistreess and submit to treatments and conditioning prescribed secretly by my Mistress to condition, emasculate, and make me into a sissy closet male.
In a fantasy sense, i remain in the beauty slaon sitting on the special high stool with the dildo screwed into the center, awaiting my next beauty treatment. Symbolically, I am wearing my butt plug and expecting to graduate to a larger one soon.
I remain in a chaste state until I speak to Mistress again soon for new direction.
Your loving sissy slave, nancy







































































