Dear Mistress Alexa Blog

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My Dearest Mistress Alexa,

I thank you, Mistress, for accepting me as one of your houseboy slaves.

I am unable to express my extreme satisfaction with our first session.

From the very first moment, I became hypnotically entranced, seduced by your voice and subtle, dominant, demeanor. I surrender to the confidence and influence that you assert. I feel as though I am in your presence when you speak. I am not deceived by your soft spoken voice. I feel that you are very dominant and capable of disciplining me were I so deserving kneeling at your feet

I realize the cyber nature of your dominance and training, but feel enslaved to you, Mistress. My needs for your feminine insights and understanding, as you probe my mind and control it, compel me to trust you and serve you blindly, Mistress.

You may have noticed how nervous I am when you question me. I am very shy, fearful and had to force myself to call you, Mistress. I have perused your website and compared it to others, and yours is unique and ubiquitously excites my inner subconscious feminine needs.

I stroked my (your property) clitty for you in our session, painted my lips with “lip-gloss”, and most importantly stopped before I would cum. Then, later in evening repeated similarly for you, Mistress.

Today, I officially began the three days and have not masturbated to cum since 3-22-05 (Tuesday). I did the dry masturbation sans orgasm this morning (3-24-05) and will continue it thrice daily through 3-26-05.

Last night, I slept with a butt plug inserted. I plan to continue this.

My masturbation regimen is to go to your corner and insert butt plug up my cunt, imagine Mistress’ spiritual presence, commanding me to suck my 7” dildo. While sucking it, I stroke my clitty, telling my Mistress, she owns my clitty and that I must always obey, Mistress.

Every evening, I dress in high heels and panties and admire my legs in a mirror while fully erect, pretending that the mirror bears the eyes of Mistress, then I kneel in Mistress’ corner and stroke my clitty (Mistress’), fellating the dildo and stop just before cumming. During the day, I fit myself with a butt plug and wear it all day.

Already I feel extremely submissive all day and compulsively visit Mistress’ web site and am erect much of the time. I feel my clitty, rubbing it for her. I think about how Mistress teased me to imagine performing cunilignus on her.

The continual feeling, wearing the butt plug, fills me with hidden secret desires. I fear the humiliation of submitting to a man and how I will feel afterwards.

Later, I will send email describing myself et cetera. I presume that my next call would be this Sunday. Is that a problem, Mistress, or shall it be a different day?

Your loving slave,
not yet named

International Journal of Transgenderism

International Journal Of Transgenderism

Some interesting articles on male/female identification, and one which mentions Sexual Transgenderism and the Military, with a special section on Armed Forces Rejectees.

“…While I separated his papers to isolate the proper form, I asked if he wanted to tell me anything else before I entered his rejection on his papers. He said, “Well, I don’t suppose I’m the kind of a homosexual you’d suspect me of being. You see I don’t have anything to do with males and you’d call me a cunnilinguist. But I’m a homosexual, Doctor, I assure you, because these organs down here mean nothing. I am a woman and all the doctors in these United States and Europe can’t convince me otherwise.” The Armed Forces did not want a man like that.

What was the diagnosis?

Inadequate personality. Paraphrenia. (Cunnilinguist – imagines he is a female.)”

* *QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS ON THE SEX LIFE AND SEXUAL PROBLEMS OF TRANS-SEXUALS

I’m Quincy Durant . . .

…and this is my faithful Chinese houseboy. Do you know the reference?

..the worst thing that Mistress could do was to leave me alone with my thoughts, as i was there, somewhat helpless. After all, they were merely my thoughts, not Hers. What good could come of that? Left alone with only my own inconsequential thoughts running through my mind, i didnít fully realize at first why She would do such a thing and i felt somewhat abandoned. i was left alone to let my vacuous, meandering, unguided thoughts run their course. Then i realized that was what Mistress wanted, to let me know how meaningless my thoughts were, that Hers were to be absorbed fully and consumedby my mind and body; letting them replace my own. At that moment i realized that She didnít drag anyone grudingly along this path and knew that those She chose to drag on it followed willingly and were rewarded by her presence, her wisdom, Her perfection.

i waited to feel her perfect presence near me. Just to feel it, to succumb to it, made me feel alive; made me feel that i had a purpose. She knew how to use that against me, but that was the point, was it not?

Goldstein, 68, is halfway through a three-year probation sentence, the result of a guilty plea he entered after being charged with harassing one of his four ex-wives. Goldstein published her phone number in Screw and encouraged readers to phone her at work and tell her she was a “cunt.”

“The wives have taken money,” he said. “Every wife walked away with money and my testicles. Right now I’m a he-she. I don’t even have balls or a dick. It’s a good thing I don’t have AIDS. I am a shell of what I used to be. What’s sad is, I have good mind, I know the porn business, and I really wanna work. Thirty-five years of harassment and it hasn’t stopped. I’m Lenny Bruce.”

What are you wearing?

Want to celebrate the new spring fashions together? Email me with your sissy name and I will register you for this blog. Then whenever you get dressed up you can jack in, and tell all the girls what you’re wearing. We’ll put together a little form, dress: size, color, style; stockings: size, decoration, shade; shoes: style, color, heel; hair: style, color; make-up: everything!; accessories…. Did I forget anything?