Dear Mistress

I stumbled across the website after I decided to do some research after I saw a magazine styled after ‘Sissy Girls’ I saw at a local sex shop. Let me be blunt. I am a transsexual, but after reading several of the stories and looking at some of the material on your site, I actually felt a bit…well, scared to tell the truth. For me transsexuality is about survival. Without hormones testosterone infects me like the most insidious poison, but to these examples, forced feminization seems like a hybrid of transsexuality and kink. In my situation, I know not to judge, but I have some difficulty understanding. The women in these stories seem to abandon their masculinity and improve themselves by becoming women and engage in sexual domination.

I guess the biggest question I have is to what extent is this all a fantasy and to what extent is it an actual lifestyle change? Forgive my naivite, but the contracts and worksheets you have posted seem pretty clear about the intent on an actual transformation of sorts. For lack of better terms, is this for real? Do some men actually abandon their minds and become servants of wealthy women? Again, I apologize for the naivite, but it seems a bit unclear to me.

In any event, the one thing that disturbs me a little is the willingness to abandon rational thought and self-respect. I understand the sexual and mental pleasure that can be derived from being dominated, but the extent of it all seems a little…cruel. Make no mistake though! I am not condemning any lifestyle or choice. I’m more just curious.

I understand you are probably a very busy woman and probably won’t have time to reply (since I imagine your inbox is quite large), but if you could offer me a small explanation or clarification, I would be much obliged.

Thank You.

Friendly and Respectfully,

L.

Fanny Grrl: A thought diary of a transgendered boygirl.
The penis tucking secret

All crossdressers have this problem: “How can I tuck away my genitals, but remain comfortable and without any extra help?” I just don’t like gaffs, strapping, taping and so forth. It’s uncomfortable, often painful and doesn’t really make you ‘feel’ right down there. Lucky for us, there IS a way, and it’s quite easy too.

In recent years, I have developed a way of hiding the male bulge without any ‘extras’. There is only one thing you should be able to do to use this technique: you need to be able to push your testicles back in the the lower abdomen.

WHAT?

Well, in case you didn’t know, when before you were born, the testicles resided INSIDE the body, in a cavity in the lower abdomen called the inguinal canal. Before birth or soon after, the testicles descend into the skin below the abdomen, thus giving shape to the distinctive male genitalia.

These cavities remain throughout our lives, however the opening through which the testicles descended might become more tight. Actually, when you gain weight or grow older, these openings may open up completely again.

Now, if you didn’t succeed yet to push your testicles up into your body though these openings, I would suggest to CAREFULLY feel upwards along the shaft of your penis. Don’t mind to take up some loose skin while you go up, the opening can be quite deep.

Now follow the steps as indicated below to completely hide your penis and make your sex look (and feel!) like female genitalia.

Step 1.

Go sit down in a comfortable position (on the bed f.i.) and undress.

Step 2.

Lie down on your back. Use some pillows to support your back. Using a small mirror to see what you are doing might be helpful.

Step 3.

Push your testicles up into your lower abdomen. Be careful not to harm yourself. You might get the sensation as if someone kicked you in the groin. Although you shouldn’t feel any pain.

Make sure that you leave as much (scrotum) skin as possible hanging outside.

Step 4.

Now roll down on your side. You should keep your hand on your penis as shown, otherwise your testicles might get pushed out again.

Step 5.

With the other hand, take AS MUCH skin as possible and pull it down towards (and if possible over) your anus.

Your penis will be pulled back as you pull the skin. This is good, as now we’ll hide the penis as well.

Step 6.

Roll back. As you roll, your thighs keep the skin and penis in place.

Of course, if you have a very hard erection, this doesn’t work. Although that a completely soft penis doesn’t help eather. In my own experience, having a half erect penis works best. With some practice, you should be able to do this in a matter of seconds, even while standing up.

Ready to go

Now you’re ready to go. Any kind of girls panties should keep everything in place. G-strings may get uncomfortable after a while, and if you have a big penis, it may ‘pop out’ when you’re wearing strings. Again, in my experience, ordinary girls’ panties work best.

Have fun!
Fanny :-)

Thank you R, for telling me about Fanny Grrl: A thought diary of a transgendered boygirl and her

For illustrations, see Fanny G’s blog

hi Maam,
my name is SSSSS. i have called you before, but not in a while. i have always LOVED talking to you. i still very often think about the roleplays i have done with you. you catching me skinny dipping and finding out i have a shriveled baby penis…...... that one is in my head a lot :)
i am writing to you now because i am dying to talk to you. but know i wont be able to explain this over the phone cause im to shy to get it all out. in the past you have always sort of hinted that you would push me into something…... and i always said that i did not want to play there. and at the time i did not. im sending you some caption pictures that i have done (i have done a lot of the…blushing) i know these are the best way to tell you this. i hope you are amused by them…...... and to be honest i cant even imagine what a call with you will be like no that you know all of this…..
thank you for taking the time to look at these, i am hoping to call you as soon as possible. if you get this, and have a moment, please send me a quick reply so i know you have been in on my secret. i will call as soon as i hear back from you :) i am deeply embarrassed by sending you these…... but i do hope you like them
SSSSSS

Lucky Star is a popular Japanese cartoon series whose main characters are all female with pastel colored hair and schoolgirl dresses. Thousands of young men (in their 20s and 30s) dressed in sailor skirts, pink wigs and stockings, pay tribute to their comic heroines by visiting Washinomiya Shrine, in costume.

My morning starts at 5 am I’m allowed a twenty minute shower in which I’m expected to remove all body hair. Mistress hates razor bumps so I have to use Veet. When I get out of the shower I see the clothes Mistress had me lay out the night before, I slip my red lace panties up over my hips until I feel them fit snugly. My Mistress has given me a matching lace bra to wear it’s a pushup bra which makes my titties look bigger. I then strap on my garter belt and slide my stockings up and attach them and make sure the seams are straight, Mistress doesn’t like pantyhose. A short black skirt and white blouse complete my uniform. The blouse is short and only comes to my navel and cut so low that every time I bend over you can see the lace cups of my bra. The skirt is likewise short barely halfway down my thighs so again anyone standing behind me can see my panties whenever I bend over. I know it’s kind of naughty but I try to bend over a lot. I like to wear high heels but mistress says they make too tall so I have to wear flats unless I have special permission, at least they’re cute little t-straps. Next comes make up; mascara, eye liner and shadow, blush, and lipstick. Now I’m ready to inspect the rest of the girls.

The others are all ready and look gorgeous of course. Heidi looks especially cute in pigtails. She’s on kitchen duty this week so she’s wearing a darling little cook’s outfit. I envy her a little she’s more petite than me and shorter so she can wear heels all the time. I can see a hint of a bra strap peeking out of her sleeveless dress and ask her to tuck it in. Then there’s Lauren, she’ll be serving Mistress’ breakfast so she’s wearing a more standard maid’s uniform. Finally Becka the new girl, Becka’s on call this morning to run errands and fetch things for Mistress, she’s got on a frilly sundress in case she has to go out for some reason. My name is Anna. I’m Mistress’ body servant.

Your new name will be Lauren, Let me tell you a little about who and what you will be. Eventually Lauren will be employed by one of our wealthy female clients. I can’t tell you just exactly who She will be, but suffice it to say that in your eyes she will be the most beautiful woman you have ever known.You will dedicate every waking moment to ensuring that she is happy, healthy and content. You will have no sexual feeling for her, of course, or for any woman for that matter; this would only compromise your role as a servant. You will admire her, though. In your heart of hearts, you will wish that you could be her.Everything that she touches – her clothes, her undergarments, her makeup, her shoes, and her jewelry, even the furniture she sits uponwill be dearer to you than your own life. You will be nothing. She will be God, the Universe, all that is good and beautiful and worthy of being loved. Your existence would have no meaning if it were not for Her. If she is in the least displeased with your behavior it will be as if someone were twisting a knife inside your chest. You will have no peace of mind until she restores you to her good graces. Even the slightest frown or look of disappointment can drive you to tears of despair for not having perfectly served her.You will work very very hard, Lauren. Your days will be filled with cleaning, washing, vacuuming, cooking, ironing, sweeping, laying out clothes, picking up clothes, putting away clothes, dusting, emptying trash, doing dishes, mopping, brushing your mistressís hair, serving meals, serving coffee, making snacks, scouring toilets, making beds, day after day after day, seven days a week, three hundred and sixty five days a year. What little time you have for yourself will be spent looking at the pictures in women’s magazines or fussing with your appearance. You will keep yourself lean and trim. Your undergarments and uniforms will always be immaculate. Your makeup will always be fresh and perfectly applied.And sometimes, Lauren, when it is late at night and you are not too exhausted from your long day of service, you will pleasure yourself in a manner consistent with the abject feminine consciousness we have created for you. You will find yourself fantasizing exclusively about men: strong and powerful men who are as strong as you are weak, who are as hard and forceful as you are soft and submissive, men alone or men in groups who see you only as a sexual object, men who want to possess your body in every conceivable way again and again and again.As time passes you will naturally want to make your fantasies real. Perhaps your mistress will give you a night off now and then. Perhaps she will have given you some of her precious, castaway clothing. Perhaps you will put on a tight dress and high heels and spend an evening looking for male companionship at a local bar. All will be possible once you are a woman.I know that you have lived a cultured life and are well educated. You have read many books and perhaps speak several languages. You are accustomed to thinking deeply about things, to making decisions based on reason and analysis and your great storehouse of knowledge. All of this will change.When we are done with you you will barely have the intellectual capacity of a six year old. Big words will be lost on you. Out of necessity your mistress will have to talk to you like a child. You will be smart enough to follow instructions and do your weekly chores, but no more than that. You will be able to read simple printed messages, but the morning newspaper will be as meaningless to you as if it were written in Egyptian hieroglyphics.I know this is very hard for you to imagine, and it might be more than a little frightening as well, but I assure you that we do this for very good reasons. You will simply be much happier if you donít have to think very much. How many college graduates are content to be maids? Being a maid will be the most important and treasured thing in your life, next to your mistressís happiness, and we donít want to complicate it with unnecessary thinking. And you shouldnít be afraid. The process is gradual, somewhat in synchronization with the changes in your body.As your breasts become bigger and bigger thanks to the massive injections of hormones, your mind will become smaller and smaller thanks to the other medication and treatments we will give you. Memories and experience will vanish like ghosts in the dark. In their place will appear simple concepts and feelings similar to those of a very young girl. Have you ever noticed how much little girls worship their mothers? How they want to look and act like them? How they follow them around the house trying to be helpful? How they want to look pretty and be loved? Those are the feelings that you will soon have, first towards one of our trainers and then towards the woman whom you will serve and adore for the rest of your life.So there it is Lauren. I would ask you if you still wanted to go through with it, but we both know that it is too late for second thoughts. You have been unhappy as a man, but now we are here for you to make things better. I look forward to seeing you next week. Please be sure to have your affairs in order, as you will never be returning to your present home or to your present life.Now I’m ready to serve, where do I report?

Good Morning Mistress,

Mistress,
I look at your website all the time, and dream. I have only called once but it is almost torture to me not to be turned into the sissy that I have always wanted to be. Oh if only there were a place I could go and be turned into a real sissy, brainwashed, and set free to serve women with every thing I have. I can think of no happier success story that there could be.
wanna be,
Pauline

Sharina Nicole
www.sharinanicole.com

I am enthralled and so impressed by your artistry and obvious mastery of the spoken word. I believe you have taken the fantasy and its pursuit with the obvious limitations as such beyond any expectation of mine. I am almost afraid to call and fullfill such a desire as I have. I look forward to revealing to you my need and my dream that came to me. I hadn’t had a wet dream since i was a teenager but i did in this wonderful unexpected erotic visit from my subconscious. You are a wonderful storyteller.
Mama’s Boy

Good morning,

Good Morning Mistress,

Dear Mistress,

Good morning, here I sit happy to have recieved praise from you. I am happy to serve you in every way I can and will. Please help me to better serve you. I live for my servitude to you. I guess I am a little confused at these feelings as I have never been a servant. My excitment at the thought of serving you is growing with each comunication I have with you. Thank you for taking time out of your busy day to comunicate with your humble sevant, If there is any way that I can serve you please do not hesitate to tell me. Your servant , XXXXX

BANGKOK (Reuters) – Hospitals and clinics in Thailand were barred from performing “cosmetic castration” on would-be “ladyboys” without the rigorous evaluation required for a sex change operation.

The Public Health Ministry said doctors performing this quick operation would face up to six months in jail. It will be difficult to enforce this ban since it takes only 15-20 minutes to have the surgery, which can be done anywhere.

“Thailand is home to a large number of “ladyboys,” or “katoey” in Thai, a term that covers anything from a transvestite to a man who has undergone a full sex change,” reports Reuters. In response to the demand from teenage boys to look more like girls, internet ads offer castration for as low as 4,000 baht ($125).

(Reporting by Panarat Thepgumpanat; Writing by Ed Cropley; Editing by Michael Battye and Valerie Lee)

Well, last night i finally got to fuck S! But rightly so, it wasn’t with my own “clittycock” as she calls it, rather, I fucked her to several orgasms with her newest dildo. Every new one is just a little bigger than the previous favorite. Anyway, I am still locked safely away in the cb3000, its been almost 2 weeks now since I’ve been out, and nearly 6 months since I’ve been inside her. I just wanted to drop a little update.

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I want so much to have the beautiful curvey body of a woman, without body hair, with beautiful breasts, curvey butt and soft, soft skin.  I want to rid myself of the bulge in my pants and be able to wear silky and pretty panties which cling to my soft smooth feminine form.  I would love hair which falls softly over smooth shoulders, slim arms and legs with beautifully painted nails on hands and feet.  The thought of sexy lingerie makes me wild with desire and I love to wear it under my male clothing.  I love to wear make-up and enjoy the process of applying it – the longer it takes the better!

Why, oh why was I born a man??!

Oh Mistress,

I find myself succumbing to wicked cravings as I look at the patent leather high heels in front of me. I have such a weakness for lingerie & shoes now after our therapy sessions.

The sensations are wonderful as I begin to roll the Cuban heel, seamed nylons up my freshly shaven legs.

Delicately straightening the seams. Selecting the most satiny pink sexy panties is next as I slide them up to caress my hot mound framed by my garter belt.

Picking from my collection of high heels is only topped by the wonderful feeling of slipping them on and wrapping the seductive straps around my ankles capturing my most secret desires.

I cannot resist clasping the silky straps of my DD bra around my chest and gently pinching the nipples as my new DD breasts feel so sensitive on my body.

Creamy red lipstick and shimmery wet gloss is the finishing touch that makes my lips pout and crave wrapping around you.

Oh it feels so good as I lay back, taste my lips, inhale the scent of lingerie and dream of succumbing to your sensual & wicked transformation. I’m yearning to experience the fulfillment of being captured and changed forever with another session…

Oh Mistress,

I find myself succumbing to wicked cravings as I look at the patent
leather high heels in front of me. I have such a weakness for lingerie & shoes now after our therapy sessions.

The sensations are wonderful as I begin to roll the Cuban heel, seamed nylons up my freshly shaven legs. Delicately straightening the seams. Selecting the most satiny pink sexy panties is next as I slide
them up to caress my hot mound framed by my garter belt. Picking from my
collection of high heels is only topped by the wonderful feeling of
slipping them on and wrapping the seductive straps around my ankles capturing my most secret desires.

I cannot resist clasping the silky straps of my DD bra around my chest and gently pinching the nipples as my new DD breasts
feel so sensitive on my body.

Creamy red lipstick and shimmery wet gloss is the finishing touch that makes
my lips pout and crave wrapping around you.
Oh it feels so good as I lay back, taste my lips, inhale the scent of lingerie and dream of succumbing to
your sensual & wicked transformation.

I’m yearning to experience the fulfillment of being captured and changed forever with another session…

K

In PESHAWAR, Pakistan eunuchs and crossdressers are celebrating the defeat of the Islamist administration in last Monday’s vote. Transgender musicians will now again be free to play their ritual part in Pashtuni social functions. Dancing and singing and swinging their hips and moving their pelvis like women, for example. See details and video in the article by by YAROSLAV TROFIMOV today’s Wall Street Journal

Those of you using Craig’s List to find men to use you or love you should be aware that CraigsList.com is monitored and at times raided by the police.

As reported on 2/18/2008 by WKRN of Nashville, e-prostitution actually makes it easier for police to catch offenders.

“Any time you’re talking to a female on the internet, you could be talking to us,” said one undercover agent.

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Peek-a-boo: Dressing you up, in garter belt and petticoats, and then in a peek-a-boo design which lets me see (and monitor) your attentive clitty-cock and tease and taste your swollen nipples.